Lessons I've Learned

In the last four months I’d like to think I’ve grown. I wish I was speaking on my physical stature (I’m 4’10) but what I’m referring to is I’ve grown a little wiser. I believe part of that growth is attributed to learning me. So what I’d like to do today is share with you some lessons I’ve learned in the last four months. Some of these have been revelation and some of these gentle nudge reminders.

1. I can’t do it all.

I used to pride myself in the fact that my home was tidy, meals were always made, children were clean, and I looked decent all before 5pm when my husband came home from work. While the outward looked phenomenal inwardly I was over stressed, tired, and about to burn out. I felt like a complete failure if my list of to do’s were not completed. There was never any pressure from my husband it was all unattainable expectations I set on myself. I learned I couldn’t do it all. It’s okay if I didn’t get to clean my house today, if my kids were in their pajamas all day long, and I didn’t get a chance to put on makeup. Some days I choose peace and a little chaos instead of perfectionism and mommy melt downs. 

2. I’m stronger than what I thought.

Not too long ago I faced a trial that seemed unimaginable and completely unbearable. All I can say is that I had two choices. I could have stayed broken and wallowed in my pain and allow the enemy to gain a foothold of bitterness, or I could give God my pain and allow that to be an opportunity for growth and a greater dependency on God. I chose the latter. My strength only came from trusting in God.

3. My time is precious.

My youngest is almost seven months old. I can’t believe he’s already sitting up and eating baby food. What I can’t believe is that this is it. When Chase was born I also decided to have a tubal ligation so we can’t have any more children, of course there’s always that small percentage. I don’t regret my decision but it does give me a reminder of how precious time is. It dawned on me the other day as I was going through his drawer of clothes that it was the last time I’d see him in a particular outfit that was my favorite. It will be the end to bulky baby gadgets that are a pain to travel with but completely necessary. Time sure does fly by so I’m learning to stop and bask in the precious moments I have while in “baby land.”

4. San Antonio is so much fun!

Okay, I already knew this, but there is a huge difference between visiting the city and living in it. I love living in it! There are so many wonderful opportunities for my kids. I actually have options! I used to live in a city where the options were slim so it has been refreshing to explore the fun.